Yet Another Teenage Rivalry

Back in grade 9 I used to have a rivalry, I hated her and she hated me because thats what rivalries are. And since I am the kind of person who does not hate people without a logic, I had a very valid reason for this hatred, she was a two faced person and I hate two faced people. She used to taunt me and bother me and so on, the typical. I left the school and very soon I realized how stupid I was to think about that rivalry all the time, I was wasting my time thinking about what some girl said to me. And now once again I have found yet another rivalry but this time I have decided not to let her get into my head and rather focus on more important stuff I have to do in my life.
Now, you must be wondering why I am wasting my precious time talking about her, well the point is, I wanted to give this advice to all of you people out there who are wasting their so very precious time pondering about their rivalries when they can surely do better stuff in life. Rivalries are nothing but a waste of time, and soon you will be realizing this. Almost every person has a rivalry at a certain stage of life, not only in their teenage but even in their adulthood. But you shouldn't really give a damn about what they say, just ignore and walk away. Thats what I did today and that's what I'll do from now on and so should you.
Adios!

That Hollywood Moment

Hey Everyone. Today I'd like to share an experience with you. My first "Hollywood moment." I have always wanted to be someone big in my life, to do something different, to be unique. I am a struggling writer, an unofficial photographer, a lyricist and many more. Today I thought it was my golden chance to hit the big screen, that sort of thing that usually happens in movies, how a small town girl all of a sudden gets a chance to realize her dream..

 A girl came up to me in academy and asked me whether I knew about the Global Peace Conference which is between students of different countries. And since I am of the right age I got really excited after hearing that and was very much looking forward to apply for it. Its a big opportunity and a very big thing which I thought might be helpful for me in future so I got the number of the in charge from her and called him up when I came home. All my way back from academy I kept praying and thinking that this might be it. My golden opportunity to get closer to my dream. But when I called him and told him that I am a private candidate of O levels and want to know the details as I look forward to apply for the interview he flatly refused to give me any information saying that it was not their policy to allow private candidates to participate. I was speechless for a few seconds on the phone, I soo badly wanted it but I couldn't participate just because i was a private candidate. That was harsh but of course, one can not argue with mother nature so I just thanked him politely and hung up the phone. But I am not going to give up on my dreams so easily and neither should you, there will be more and  better opportunities in future, at least thats what I hope. And since I strongly belief that what happens happens, happens for the best, I am not going to give up this easily. There will surely be another way, another chance for me to show myself to the world, to show who I truly am, and succeed.

bye now x)

A ray of Hope.

Hello everyone. Today as I begin to write, I once again have a thousand things on my mind and before I opened this blog, I was reading the blog of my favorite author, Paulo Coelho. and his writing inspired me to write. Not the fact how amazing and popular he is, but  what he had written convinced em to persuade this blog as publishing a book, remains to be one of my many goals in life.

He had actually posted a page from his book, the Alchemist. That book is  a ray of  hope for me and will surely act as one for those who dream. And since everybody has a dream, because thats the only reason why they strive and work so hard, I think that everybody should read it. And if not the entire book, read this; http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2011/02/12/character-of-the-week-the-alchemist/


There isn't much to write about, I havent really been in touch with my diary either, but I think that this link of an inspirational note should do the trick ;)

Oh and one more thing, in my opinion every one should work for the betterment of humanity. So that we all have a better future. People should stop bring selfish and just once, Once, in their lifetime to do something for the betterment of humanity.

okie, bye now.(btw just now I was going to write "love you all" then I realized I don't really have any readers :S)  well, maybe I should start publishing the link of this blog here and there. x)

A passionate Writer

hello. I wonder if anyone is ever going to read this blog for I don't actually post the links of my blog anywhere and never do I give others's their links( i have 2 more blogs, shhhhh ;D ).

 I have  always been a quiet and reserved soul though I can become quite euphoric when I'm with people my age. But that's not the point. The thing is that I've always been a diary writer, a passionate diary writer. I love to write and I also love using the computer so instead of writing all this, which I'm about to write, on a piece of actual paper I decided to make a blog.

I had one before as well but due to certain reasons, I stopped writing in it/ (I'll share the reasons with you some other time but not now, I have a lot on mind right now.) Actually, I always have a lot on mind. I can never stop thinking (except when i'm asleep of course) and that's what urges me to write. My mind gets cramped up by thoughts which I can not hold in my head anymore and thus I begin to write. I haven't written much for the past few weeks, just a few diary entries but now, I was just about to study but I knew I wouldn't be able to concentrate. Once in a while I just need to write a lengthy piece of writing which does not contain the past incidents of my life, but my thoughts. I do keep a diary as well but in it I usually share and write about what has been going in my life on where as on my blog I just let my thoughts flow free irrespective of the fact whether they are making any sense or not. 

I just need to empty my head every once in a while so I write a blog otherwise I can't concentrate on my studies (which I need to do since I have big exams coming up this May D: ) And that's the reason why I am going to conclude this post now and hit my books. 

There's a lot more I'd like to write about for I am a passionate writer but some other time. If I continue right now, I wont be able to stop myself for the next few hours. even right now while I'm writing this a lot is going through my mind especially the fact that I am simply not able to stop myself from pressing the keys on the keyboard in front of me and sharing my thoughts.

But I should stop this at once (though i'll be coming back pretty soon) but anyways, Bye for now :)

Oh, one more thing. The reason why the name of this blog is recalcitrant thoughts is because it's true, I have uncontrollable thoughts and that's the reason why I just can't prevent myself from writing right now. Although I should be saying farewell to you (I don't even know who this "you" is for any one hardly ever reads my blog but anyways, Bye you :D ) OH WAIT, I STILL HAVEN'T completed my sentence, so as I WAS SAYING,  ALTHOUGH I SHOULD BE SAYING farewell to you, I can't because in my head these thoughts are deep and UNCONTROLLABLE. (Next time i go to a super market, I'm gonna buy a whip for them ;] )

Anyways, Bye now :D